Coming out of the Wilderness 5/29/2024

Its been a while since I’ve updated my blog and I’ve been through The Crucible my life. Through all the trials and tribulations, the moments of feeling utterly alone and desperate for affection and crying out to God and anger and frustration. In the end I had to learn the hard way such as I always same to need to experience my own foolishness until I’ve exhausted myself with mistakes.

Discernment comes with the wisdom of learning how to see ahead through the lense of past experiences, learning of the cause and effect relationship that takes place between action to outcome. We get tempted with a potential course of action, The Flesh would have us ignore running that tape forward and looking at the inevitable conclusion in favor of the desire for immediate fulfillment. When you stop and take those thoughts captive your mind learns to go through them like speed bumps and your moral fiber grows to strengthen the pathways that bring us to our best life.

once again I threw myself back into the realm of online dating apps and going out with women and finding varying levels of disappointment across the board. It seem like every single romantic potential I would pursue would literally fall apart in some way shape or form always very odd and I started to realize that God was protecting me from myself again. From the choices he knew I was not yet strong enough to make and the boundaries I wasn’t able to set for myself in the face of Temptation and the desires of the flesh.

Recently I went out on another date and did not even follow up afterwards because it seems every connection is just Bland or nonexistent. I had a younger woman in her twenties as for my phone number while I was out rollerblading in the park and ended up hanging out with her and one of her friends and put myself in a situation where the Temptation could have brought me into compromising the lifestyle I’ve been trying to set forth for myself but in the end God save me from needing to even make the choice and it wasn’t until later I found myself questioning my actions and deciding that I need to do better and praying for the strength.

It seems after I pass certain tests in life and go through trials with enough of my spiritual convictions intact God has a way of blessing me with Revelations and the Holy Spirit sometimes reaches out and zaps me. Today while I was driving I got a sudden ringing in the side of my head which happens more and more frequently lately but when it happened I got the vision for a Split Second of the man that God is turning me into and it was amazing.

I’ve been going to meet a homeless man that lives in the town nearby and have stopped and spoken with him a few times now and I’ve actually gotten the community involved in helping him by posting an anonymous Facebook post introducing a man in a community and trying to get him some assistance to get a fishing license because the man said he likes to fish and he sits by himself all day and I thought it might be nice for him to have something to do.

At first my pride wanted me to post it under my personal Facebook account so that people could see how Godly I am but I know that was not the point I was being called to help this man and so I didn’t under an anonymous post and it’s amazing the way I can feel my spirit Shifting the more and more I reach out to help other people without any benefit to myself.

I was overwhelmed by the response that the post got online dozens and dozens of people reaching out seeking to help the man whose name is Joe and I was filled with gratitude and the kind words that everyone was saying to me but not knowing who I am it feels so much easier to take the credit in silence and thank God because I know that it is his Spirit that’s working within me that is calling me to do these acts of kindness and Secret.

well I was driving today on my way to go meet Joe and give him a fishing pole along with some tackle it was like God showed me the outline of who he is turning me into and who he wants me to become and it was so amazing that I just broke down crying and thanking him and I told him I’m all in that I will take that life any day a thousand times over any fulfillment in the desires of My Flesh and I asked him to continue replacing my desires with his will and just continue to thank him over and over again while I was driving and feeling like I was having electricity running all throughout my body.

aside from that my professional life is skyrocketed since I’ve begun making my spirituality in relationship with Christ more strict and the focal point of my life and he’s been blessing me Beyond anything I could have ever dreamed to the point where I’m going to be launching and creating a retail window division with approval from the owner and a budget end up potential stock holding status in the future and it’s all because of the spiritual gifts that God has been blessing me with and the fruits that are being produced by it.

The way my career is unfolded and how my work week just falls together now when I’m surrendered and focusing on him is nothing short of Supernatural. The only thing I have to do is pray and surrender and be obedient as I continue to repent my shortcomings.

More to come very soon shining friends!